Had a breakthrough today.
I'm a drifter.. besides my family, i don't have a constant in my life.
The people i knew a year ago have now moved on, the people that i knew 2 years ago have also moved on.
Nothing stays the same for more than a year, i don't know if anyone else has noticed this with their life.
I guess, i want a constant in my life, someone who doesn't have to stay, but who does, regardless.
And i think, the only way i can do that is through a relationship, that's why i want a long term relationship, more than anything.
I guess i'm afraid to lose anyone else, that's why i'm hanging onto the people i have so much.
I know that in a year i'll have changed, i'll have a completly different set of friends, maybe life won't be very different than it is now, partly because i'm starting to understand a bit better what i want to do, but the people i know will move on and things will change.
I dunno, i'm ranting.. i guess i just want someone who won't leave, i've lost enough people.
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